This topic is what I have been longing to talk about. And now, let's spread the sheet out.
Hohoho (trying to make it less formal and serious).
A lotsa people have me described as a talkative, cheerful and energetic little girl or xiaomeimei as you wish.
This side of me cannot be denied. I am like so, most of the time.
However, via either my blog or twitter, some people get to know me better (not the full me yet of course). They have this revelation that "Oh! So Xin Hui is one of the 'religious' people, she's 'holy', she loves her God and this and that".
Firstly, I would like to say that I am not religious or holy, to be qualified as a holy one, one must
1. not get angry inwardly or outwardly (Which is pretty impossible),
2. not listen to worldly songs (Yes I do)
3. not buy quality goods and emphasize on brands (Sometimes I am so :p)
4. not commit wrongdoings (Oh well, I am not good at keeping the laws and this Abba knows it well)
Haha, so all these (or even more) have proven that I am not holy AT ALL. I do silly mistakes and commit sins still, yet how vast is God's grace, that He has chosen to forgive all my sins (Past, present and future ones). For this I am so grateful!
Talking about loving my God, yes, my love towards God does exist, it is all because of His first love. One scripture in the Word says that 'We love, because He loved us first.' Jesus has taken the initiative to first love us, so that our love towards Him will not be an one-sided one. He always loves us more, and He is more than willing to love us so ;)
As the bible says, some people hate us without a solid reason, but purely because we are children of God. Yet, in the midst of so-called persecutions and tribulations, God is with us, Emmanuel, remember?
Then, as a matter of fact, some people do stay a distance away from me, having this knowledge that 'Xin Hui is that kinda person, she uses God as her armor for everything, even for bad deeds that she has implemented'.
Haha, well, at this point I have got something to clarify.
IF GOD IS NOT MY ARMOR, WHO WOULD BE? WHO ELSE IS MORE ELIGIBLE TO BE MY WARRIOR OTHER THAN MY ALMIGHTY DADDY GOD?????
And worry not, my anger has simmered down by the greatness of Jesus' love and grace long ago. What grace has taught me if I have never learnt to forgive? ;) So I love you all folks, and pray that one day you will see this goodness with your pair of unveiled eyes, in Jesus' name yoooo!
God is good. Other than those people, there are a bunch of friends who love me as who I am (Most of them are not Christians, yet they know how to respect me, my God and my beliefs). Hereby I would like to point out that my particular blog readers are like this lovely also ;-) Thank God for you all!
And... this part of me is just another side of me. I have got a lotsa sides yooooo. I can get grumpy; I can vent my anger by shouting; I can have a bittergourd face; I can tear like an infant etc etc. (Heh, who says Christians will not get angry, we have got nerves and emotions too okay? The only difference is that when our indignation arises, God's supernatural peace and loving kindness will engulf and neutralize it.)
Like how Abba loves me as who I am, I deeply believe that my future partner will too, love me as who I am, and embrace all my sides. Based on equality, I will treat him the same way he treat me too.
Till then, love doing meaningful sharings like this instead of some totally senseless blabberings.